It felt rock hard so the vet and us put it down to calcification and arthritis. After 9 months, they placed him up for adoption. Let the tears flow and the guilt will go as well. He was suffering. One time I said to the vet his breath was really bad and they said give him a small bone with no fat it should be fine. my sweet dog was a very good dog. She was also my daughters dog and I feel so bad for her. I moved into a new house several years ago and soon after discovered an elderly cat living in the backyard. When I made her bed as was our routine, she jumped on the bed. I am severely allergic to cats but decided to keep her as an outdoor cat because I felt bad for her. Do you think I did the right thing. I felt it and it was clicking and he was in a lot of pain when I tried to move it. Click here for instructions on how to enable JavaScript in your browser. He sent me to a different place to have xrays and ultrasound. I think of the “what-ifs” and have massive regret and feel like I could have done more to help him. All I know is before they put her down, I think she knew she looked up at me twice as if it was ok. She layed her head down on my feet and started sleeping on her own. My husband and I came home late Saturday night and Trixy was begging for her canned food up in my bedroom like she usually did. I went to the shelter and relinquished her to the city. Finally after another big fight over the cats, my dad (the dictator) decided to take the two male cats infected with mange to an animal shelter which promised to take care of them and then get sign them up for adoption. I couldn’t lie around feeling sorry for myself, I had him to walk and see to. I don’t deserve too really! Mom and sisters wanted the cats to be adopted or thrown into a “good” shelter. Geordie, I agree wholeheartedly. I keep seeing her little face when I left her, afraid at the vet. I had to put to sleep Bonnie, my Scotty Terrier today. I did what I thought was best but honestly my decision making skills that fateful day were childish and now I suffer. But when I called, it was too late. gases to pass either way. When I got home from work I would greet him before anyone else in the house and ask him about his day. I made the decision to put him down. I miss her so much. I am so sorry for your loss of your dog Scooby. The way he always looked at me, I had the feeling like having a “special connection” to him. I still did not allow the vets to euthanize him, i picked him up ( now off oxygen) and I could feel his little heart beating like crazy, he made a cry of pain / discomfort when i picked him up and Then I knew there was nothing I could do and didn’t want him to suffer. Her whiskers were bent, her fur coming out in clumps from stress and her legs of not much use-as she was afraid to walk due to the dogs having free reign of the house. But once the pet is gone, suddenly you see a big picture and have gained a long term view of life strategy, and you start seeing things you don’t see clearly before, realizing what you should have done better. I was giving her a prescribed steroid, and it would sometimes help. She was my heart. pain. Fariba I am so sorry for the loss you are feeling. A reader writes: My mother died in her sleep and I feel like I’m starting to lose it. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my Boston last year and i still cry over him. I refused all testing as I had made her a promise for years that in her final hours: 1) no extra time at the vet; 2) as much peace and love as I could provide; and 3) I’d be there with her if at all possible. There’s no particular order in which you’ll experience then and you may not experience them all. In this article I will present one perspective. He also had urinary blockage. Sedation is the only way he would let anyone near him for anything. Ozzy too was getting old, losing his sight and his hearing. I would’ve chosen surgery also. Definitely different circumstances but the feeling that I’ve totally failed my Bear leaves me sleepless at night. I hope you start to feel better, i believe even if we euthanize – our dogs tell us it’s time; I always heard that, and thought, how? Feel what that new spacious you is. similar thing happened to me today with my 14 year old cat. Our 2 other cats are taking this so hard also. So when our beloved pet dies we can easily end up judging and blaming ourselves, and we can be consumed by guilt and find it very difficult or even impossible, to forgive ourselves. I am devastated. She limped (if she would walk) and would snarl and nip if anyone touched her. RIP my tiny princess. So took him to the vet. By Tuesday morning he was much weaker and his leg almost looked blue on inside and it was really swollen. Today is January 12,2016 and on January 9, 2016 I had to put down my orange tabby, Stuart. She developed cancer about two years ago. It’s a challenging and heartbreaking situation to be in when a beloved pet dies so suddenly, and especially if it is without any obvious reason. And then you realize when they start growing up, your partner has issues with them suddenly. I just wanted to comment that you aren’t alone out there. Perhaps you decided to euthanize your pet because he or she was in pain, and now you’re not sure you did the right thing. Nor are your feelings irrational or crazy. If not, I hope these points may help you ‘hate’ yourself less: I totally forgot that he had health issues and was crying all the time. I feel like my actions – by allowing him to go outside – resulted in his death. I don’t know, but I feel so guilty at how I’m feeling. I found some kittens and have been taking care of them.One started acting odd on Sunday but it didn’t seem bad enough to find a vet that was open. Thank you Joan. She was in her early 60s, had high blood pressure and was a smoker. We knew it would probably be his last year. At the end of the day you did the right thing for him. I knew that she wouldnt be coming home, and I felt that it was something I had to do by myself. Me too, I feel like I failed and lost a true friend. Not that night, I called her twice and she did not come. Hi Mike, While writing this I do feel a bit better. I can’t even begin to describe how much I hate myself. Quality of Life. would have to be sedated again. I wonder if he wondered where I was and what was happening I wonder if he was sad and dissapointed in me. Linda I understand what you are going through. In the back of my mind I knew it was a bad idea, that ‘s why I even said something out loud. A lack of space, time, resources, and other reasons relating to the wants and needs of the animal and/or person cause the choice to be made. We thought maybe her leg was falling asleep from the constant laying down. When I asked the vet did we do the right thing she said “yes…it’s better to be one week early than one minute too late”. I put my dog down on the 23rd of this month and this has become the most unbearable pain I have ever felt. I am seeking answers/affirmations/guidance from anyone who has been through as extreme a situation as mine. He was so healthy and playful right up until Wednesday night. It’s a a relief to know I am not the only one who feels less capable now. I feel guilty, I feel sooooooooo much loss, so sad, completely devastated. Her food and literbox were crammed in another dark, dingy closet. I stayed with my cat for over an hour and the woman offered that I take her and ‘try it out’ for good. It is a heartbreaking decision to make, and there is always uncertainties involved. I talked to her and told her how much I loved her. But the blood stains on his bed and around the house was telling me it was time. I begged to take him home and she agreed that we could have him for the night on painkillers but I would have to promise to bring him in first thing the next morning. Unfortunately, I eventually grew tired of taking care of her and decided one morning to take her to the local animal shelter. I’ve been having a tough time lately. You may also be interested in this episode of the Healing Pet Loss Podcast where I talk about dealing with guilt after pet loss. That night I awoke from a dream where we were with him euthanizing him. I believe she had suffered brain damage beyond the seizures, maybe strokes? I’m still grieving too, and I don’t feel like I’ll ever be the same again. I keep coming home expecting to see her laying by the heater, or licking her paws by the tub. And I stayed until the end for her. Me not trying hard enough to find her. Last Saturday, just 1 week ago he seemed fine. To my horror, I had to put him down. Hello Georgette, I’m wracked with feelings of guilt. I didn’t have that kind of money. Just be loving to yourself and stop wondering what if… My dog had the best life and he gave us 12 years of pure happiness, so I can only be grateful for that. I will love you and miss you forever! The loss of a beloved pet is often accompanied by intense feelings of guilt and regret. Time will heel your wounds and soon another little joy will come into your life. I paid the money to try to save her. I knew why we had to do, but now I am feeling guilty. But which do you think is more of the case? She wasn’t interested in food or treats although she did eat a little bit. My wife took her and called me a short time later saying that the vet offered to do up tp 400 dollars worth of tests of things that could be possibly wrong with her. Her lungs were clear, all Otha s clear too. He had urinary blockage. So, I decided to stay in the room with her during the euthanization, because I felt that I owed it to her. My 11 year old BC died last Friday and it has destroyed me, I knew I loved her, I just didn’t know how much until now. As soon as I thought about it I felt so much guilt that the dog that was so loyal to me died alone. I’d call him ‘my little miracle’ and he was a fighter! He thought I abandoned him. Trey, I’m so sorry for your loss. Want to thank you SUE for sharing your story ,it was comforting for me to read your words , We had to put our beloved Shih Tzu down a month ago now , It was One of the hardest things I had to decide to do . I was too scared to look close and thought I had caused internal bleeding from aspirin. Good bye Trixy! 911 was called and animal control came to take my baby. I am very distraught because this past Friday I decided to put my German Shepherd dog down at the age of 8. He was in congestive heart failure and had very little hope of pulling through. The last 2 weeks (I had her almost 8 weeks) she actually began climbing on me-and following me from room to room in the mornings like she use to do as a baby. Denise, I had a chihuahua that died of heart failure, naturally, at home because i was in denial that she was dying. Again, this is perfectly normal. She had 2 very swollen lymph nodes as well. We thought he was declining way too fast and to put him through all the additional stress of sedating him for multiple different tests was too heart breaking. Currently you have JavaScript disabled. I could see her skin breaking down; it was mottled. My vet sent me home with steroids and antibiotics saying we can try and make him comfortable and see how it goes. He was around 2 they thought. I told her I’d see her soon. Thank you so much for the insight about letting go. My learning from this is definitely to explore all options in the future, but I’m so upset with the past. He had a great day on Thursday but yesterday morning his pee pad was blood tinged . She had gone blind so she could only smell me. Not long after letting my cats on the screened in patio, he came in and howled and was panting. Me scaring her away when she did try to come home. The best thing you can do for Omar now is to find a state of peace and go deep into your heart space where Omar lives still, and connect with him there. So the last 20mins came before his appointment and I got up and ready, took him out to the car and got him all excited that he was going for a drive, which he loved, just ignoring the facts of where he was going. I feel the same way about my dog and after reading your post I feel less guilty about mine. So they suggested that maybe it’s better option to put him to sleep. I couldn’t care to see my sweet, loving and silly cat suffer. I took her to the vet again yesterday and they told me that she is now anemic and that to bring her out of that would require hospitalization, and blood transfusions but that would merely be a ‘band-aid’, to quote the vet. After reading what you have to say, I’m always going to feel guilty, I’m always going to wonder what I couldve of shouldve wouldve done, because he is my dog and my responsibility to care for as my own. I will always love you and miss you, all of us will. A few hours later the vet called to tell us it was his hypertrophic cardiomyapathy, and blamed me for not taking our cats for annual exams. I went to open the door and turn off the alarm system and she ran away. Thank you so much. I wrote them a letter, and read it to them before placing them to rest, it explained how sorry i am, and i never meant to cause them pain and suffering. By week 1, I showed her she didn’t have to live/hide under a bed for survival-or even in a closet. And I wished I had been kind enough or clear enough to put her down when I first brought her there. he had diabetes, pancreatitis, liver problems which were being managed but he also developed kidney disease which we hoped we could stave off with meds as it was only stage 2. I am wrecked with guilt. In morning we find his back leg was so sore he couldn’t put weight on it. Owners are often given the option to be with their pet during this procedure but they do not have to be. It came to make the decision and the vets were pushing euthanasia as they didn’t believe he could get better and was suffering. The vet feels it may have been diabetes. Your veterinarian can help you determine when the time may be right to put your pet to sleep if you feel it is suffering since sometimes putting it to sleep is the only way to relieve the pain. Thank you for letting me cry out. And what if??!! I loved her so much I can’t stand not having her with me. They don’t hurt. It broke my heart having to lie to her, to leave her. I find at some times I look at photos already and am finding it hard to connect and remember the touch of him, or looking in his live eyes. I feel like I killed my dog. She was a feral cat when she followed my mom home after weeks of her being fed on the street over. Stuart was 9, I had him since he was a kitten. I went camping over the weekend and feel guilty I was not with him ( we put him into the local cattery), he seemed fine then. But I still feel that I jumped the gun instead of seeing if I could help him in some way. Regardless we were given charge over their care and letting them go peacefully I pray is a true gift from us to them. I don’t know who to blame- myself for not being able to take care of the cat or for not convincing my dad that I could take care of it properly without his over-obsessive help or do I blame my mother and sisters for uniting to get the cats outside of our home. She was 13 and was diagnosed with renal failure a year ago. To put her down. My cat was hit and killed by a car on March 10, 2014. I do still think it's crazy that my dog had two different cancers, ... many gifts" that I have received through the death of my dog is the ability to feel deeply a compassion and understanding for others that I have never experienced before. For some people the pain, grief, and sadness they feel after a pet dies scares them and makes them hesitant about adopting another pet. What a wonderful site.I want to say thank you and I hope I can readjust my life,but very difficult,my story all too long and horrific.My child as she was to me ,who so many times in her short life span had truly saved me and protected me just woke up on the infamous FRIDAY THE13th and on the 19 of the month(sept 2013) she passed.I made her suffer and I too was very ill with colon CA. But I will try meditation again. I couldn’t bear the thought of selfishly keeping him around for my pleasure. We watched him loose some of his hearing and sight. We want to give our pets the best care we can possibly give them. This was my first dog and I had him for 8 years, we adopted him from a neglected state from his previous owner and we loved him soo much he brought so much joy and laughter, but now he is gone. I didn’t know what to do else. She was peppy before we went in. The most common method of putting a pet to sleep is through an overdose of an anesthetic agent. When we were at the vet, for the final time, I held him and spoke to him the whole time. All she wanted to do was sleep, her renal functions were failing, and she had lost so much weight she looked emaciated, and she had stopped cleaning herself. She was lucky to get to go to work with my husband for the past two years, we called her our little warehouse dog. It is the guard, in the end – lowered that gets us all. Remember, that dogs grieve too (and so do other pets). It turned out that her stomach had turned over and was twisted, not allowing any It seems ridiculously too soon. Forgive yourself for anything that you feel you might have not done enough for your mother and take her at her word. I lost my best friend, Mister Punkins, last month… he had cancer… I am trying to learn from my grief, I have a lot of guilt… but i bring myself to those moments we had together in the sun and remembering his happiness in spite of the pain and discomfort he was feeling. I feel the same way about my dog and after reading your post I feel less guilty about mine. Especially in times of emotional distress when we need someone to help us, someone we can rely on, someone we can trust. My love and Reiki blessings to you. She appeared not to recognize her home surroundings, including me. The hole it’s left is too big to bear. This little kitten was nature’s creation, not yours. But we need to accept our loss, and let our dogs to rest in peace. I really feel like I failed a friend. I decided to go with the operation and signed the consent form. I felt like dying. My story is a little different. Thank you for reading. It is so heartbreaking cause these dogs become part of you. The fact that it declined & died so quickly makes me wonder if there could have been anything a vet could have done to prevent it. I know at this point that I must release her but I’m experiencing difficulty in actually making the call to set up the appointment. Sometimes we accidentally hurt the dogs we love so much, and we feel guilty. He was so loyal and loving and we tried to give him a good life. The odor was horrid. I knew it was time. It was going to be around $2000 for transfusion. as she was and saw her i said i wont accept and won t leave her to go like this that she deserve to not panic and dye in the hands of the vets on a table …i guess i didn t want to accept that her time has came after all and just said that she needs a better passing ,in her bed with me beside her untill the end and after all i have seen, called the vet at 3 am morning and said that i was wrong i had better done that and i d come now, told me it s easter and it wouldn t be deacent and also too late cuz they wouldn t find a vein… saw her pain and i was still able to do this untill the end just conforting her, talking all night, petting her untill the morning when she went …you feel guilt of trying to do the right thing….i was week and thought it s better not to do it, and moral that she would deserve a family member treatment cuz you don t decide in this case ok put him down , you stay be him or her till the end ….she passed, but not peacefull at all. He was found by the backdoor, clearly trying to get out. And I feel terribly guilty for it. I just want her back so badly. It is extremely stressful for him. I miss her so much. I think those moments were a gift. I had to make this final decision in an emotional state and over the telephone. Michael , I am having the same feeling today. You see, there is an infinite supply of love, so loving a new dog takes nothing away from the dog you've lost. I hope my story might help someone who too is suffering. Again, I said, don’t feel guilty, do it in his honor — he would want you to! The decision was easy. We always feel like we could have and should have done more. He even said there could have been something else underlying that was triggered. It’s tough to hear her cry and watch her walk from room to room. .please God forgive and help me. They said we could take him to a specialist who could perform additional tests but that was in the thousands and there was no guarantee he would make it there. I am plagued with the idea that she lived a life of discomfort because of those pads, why didn’t I just make her let me cut them, weekly? We go back to check blood. I finally caught him, took him to the vet and he came to live with us, but when he needed me most, I failed him. We couldn’t afford the surgery. she hated having them cut and pulled away from us when we tried. It’s been 36 hours now and I feel like my guilt is only getting worse. She bounced back when I got her, putting 30lbs back on her and making her the goddess status she so well deserved.She was also a therapy dog for some friends I knew who had also gotten sick w/CA .I never rec’d so many sympathy cards and flowers for my sweetie. His eyes , innocence of a baby, never scratched me never growled on me, just used to fold himself onto a ball and his poor eyes used to say plz don’t hurt me ….. never treated them like pets, though from my childhood have been associated with hundreds of animals birds reptiles fishes but never murdered anyone. I feel horrible. My cat Freya slipped out of the house 2 1/2 months ago when a workman left the door open for the second time. We had to euthanize our beautiful Weimeraner, Delilah, on Friday. Her death was sudden. Even though I felt I was doing the right thing I am now so stricken with grief and guilt thinking I should have waited. I wish I had pushed the vet to check for medical issues. I knew then, I could not allow her to live this kind of life if I loved her so much. Luckily my mum and dad were there and promised he would be brought back tomorrow. Never visited him… I was ready to spend on vets up to 2.5k£ but told them that can’t go any higher. Alot of people say “think of the good times” but sadly i only had them a month and a half and its when i started building the large aviaries, so to make things worse, these poor babies spent the last month of their lives confined in a tiny cage covered with a blanket… It was supposed to be temporary but now look what iv done… iv caused them not only death, but misery. I am now racked with guilt. I looked at my husband and told him I thought he was dying. I feel like my husband, friends and the rest of the world are about to have me committed considering how devastated I am at the loss of our precious dog Zoe so I figured I’d come write here. It now looks like I will need to put my next fur baby to sleep in near future she is also 14 going 15 year and the daughter to one I lost…… Just it’s raining and storming here right now and all my babies are scared of storms I feel I need to keep them all safe, maybe it’s because I just got her ashes back, and certificate says she was privately cremated on 25th but died on 12th I hope they looked after her my heart is breaking right now and the tears won’t stop. She just laid there, soft and limp in my arms. I’m crushed. I hope all is well with you now. He was 8 years old and we first discovered he had this condition last October when we noticed he was not able to urinate. So I let her go. In the end the only peace I can have is knowing I made a decision to protect him from further pain and to keep my promise that I will be there for him till his last day. On the night we decided to let him go he was crying in his bed and struggling to get across the floor in a restless state. I had no idea I would feel all this guilt! And all that time we were sitting around, deciding if we had the money to take her in, she was suffering. They did xrays and found he had congestive heart failure, lots of fluid in his lungs and his legs were paralyzed. I finally got up and went to the meditation room. Such shelters should all be banned specially for cats. I’m going to have his brother examined by the vet to make sure he’s ok. And abandoned her. It was mainly his back legs, we could see it took a little more effort for him to stand up, but it didn’t seem to bother him. i had been feeding a feral cat for over a year..over the last few months he had started to loose weight..i was moving so i decided to trap him and take him with me..Ge did good at my house for 3 days..then he began bleeding from the mouth..i took him to the emergency vet..but dont feel they did a good job..so 3 days later i took him to another vet..He seemed better for a few days but then began to cry. I thought she was fine because her behavior had not changed. We both have put dogs down before and its not a easy thing but our dogs seemed to have been peacful during the process. I had to help assist her just yesterday by taking her in for Euthanasia. She just looked deep into my eyes for a long time. Lilly was a Yellow Lab / Australian Shepard mix and was a great dog. My sweet beautiful cat Autumn passed away this past Sunday. He was a shih tzu and due to the small bone it gave away., I sat with him for 2 days (weekend) and the vet said it would take a specialist and a week before they could do surgery that may have or may not have worked to put his jaw back together and let the bone grow back. He tried to stand right before the euthanasia and this made me feel horrible as if i was killing my dog……… I go through waves of acceptance but most all i can think of is he is gone and i should have done more or differently to keep him with us……..it has been 4 days now and I cannot seem to accept it or put my mind at ease. I too lost my Siamese. We tried searching for him but he couldn’t be found. Peppy hwas shy most of his life, but he was always near me. And I have been comforted by seeing her in dreams. Thank you. The peace and quite I sought turned out to be a huge void in my heart and the biggest torment I ever experienced. I’m glad you found your way to my website and hope you can find comfort here. We are good people who did the right thing. Lilly had a tumor behind her eye which was forcing it forward. normally i would have turned to my dog for comfort but he obviously wasn't there. Usually pets are also sedated prior to this injection to relax them and help them hold still. We can learn a lot about unconditional love from our pets and giving ourselves grace and understanding are good ways to honor our pet's memory. He got conjunctivitis and he was not eating or drinking or going to the loo. We want to give our pets the best care we can possibly give them. I was getting excited about it as I am meeting some rescues tomorrow, I even bought some toys. I know personally that she would have never hurt me and even though I did the right thing by my mother, I feel like I did the wrong thing by my dog. Please forgive me for your suffering and know that I will never forget you or replace you and that I am devastated by your loss. We gave our other cat to my sister the next day and he is very happy there. I also think i could of made her last couple of days great like just spend the day with her and one last cuddle session. He was such a loving little chap and my teenagers are distraught without him. Then she told me what would needed to be done – she said she would have to make Tigger into a girl. I feel awful for not staying a little longer in the morning before I left, just to make sure he was fine. The total bill was about $2000 or so which I could not afford. You will find a whole chapter on dealing with guilt after pet loss in my book. Even knowing this, I struggled overwhelmingly when I found myself in the situation of making this decision myself 2 months ago. The vet said we could do the expensive surgery once more, but my family decided that since this issue is terminal and there is no solution, it would just keep happening over and over again, so why put him through the stress of surgery just so we could prolong this. And I would STILL I do it all if I could. Her death was so senseless and could have been completely avoided if it wasn’t for my neglegance. He was very good in consoling my partner and I after the process. night, I had however the feeling that something must have happened to him, so the same evening I patrolled the whole neighbourhood, the nearby forster border, and also the main road, which he normally avoided, but I wanted to make sure that he wasn’t hit by a car. I don’t understand this. The house is so empty. He also hates the vets and I could not stand to take him unless absolutely necessary. I feel like I jumped the gun and only looked at the cost. ), he wouldn’t have survived it without water or food. I had to put my sweet Shih Tzu Buttercup to sleep this morning. We cannot control nature, as badly as we try. I miss my Autumn so bad. It is the hardest decision we have had to make as we have had him since 8 weeks. It turned out to be a Tumor about the size of a baseball.. And exploratory surgery was 2500$ just to go in and see.. Not for any answers or solutions. I just don’t know how to get over all this guilt. 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